sunday night: galau

this post is about my last sunday night. i was, as any other nights, in my room, doing absolutely nothing but rolling lazily on my bed, when my mom called and asked me to tidy my room up.

this was my condition --> it was sunday night, about 7 pm. the next day would be monday, where my lectures start at 2 pm. i've done all the homeworks for monday and also for the whole week.

i really deserved some idle time. but yeah, anything for you mom.

i was just about to start cleaning my desk when suddenly that feeling came to mind --> galau (yes i failed to find a perfect word in english to describe this word -_-). galau about what? about what i'm gonna do after my graduation.

at first my galauness was only about two simple options: will i work or continue my study for master degree? for that question i texted and chatted several seniors of mine. i didn't ask them about which is better for me in their opinion, but i asked about what THEY will do with themselves. so for the next several hours i ended up laying on my bed, stay tuned with my cells (yeah cells, i have 2, 1 for social networking and browsing, 1 for handling most essential cellphone functions), reading texts and IMs from them.

i found out later that my question about those two options was not an essential one. having been chatted with my seniors, something else came to my mind. the thing that i must ask to myself is: what's your real passion in your life?

passion. one of the most popular words when you're being osjur-ed. the word that every senior emphasized, the thing we all should have and believe in. it's always been only a word for me, but there is a time when i should raise its level from 'only a word' to 'something i can't live without'. the time is about, now.

many of us can't find their real passion till the end of their lives, let other people determine standards of their success and happiness. many of us found their passion, but still, people's standards of success and happiness limit them.

so the second question is: how brave are you? how brave you are to stand for your passion, to prove to the world that this is you and this is what you were born to.

that question ends my galau session. change my state from 'galau condition' to 'very galau condition'. haha. it gave me something new to contemplate, anyway. trust me guys, the 'work-or-continue-study' thing is just easy. pick one, and say: bismillah, everything will be alright. but the 'passion' thing, no it's not that easy.

i myself think that i've got it, my passion, i knew it so long time ago. but there's still the second question. well i haven't been brave enough. *sigh

have you, guys?

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